Ah Sweet Music to my ears.

So I have to start off by telling you all that if you haven't figured it out yet, I'm marrying a saint. I think it would be a bit of an understatement to say that lately, I haven't been the easiest person to be around. I've been well, a complete Debbie downer. I have been looking for work for almost two years. And lately, I will get an interview then never hear back from them. It is like that dreaded first date, where you thought it went really well. But the guy wasn't "ready to commit" which all us ladies really do know what they are saying when they tell you that one. "I'm just not that in to you." That is how my job search has gone. To sum it all in a nut phrase. Plus, there was this little thing called a case of cold feet. For some reason, I feel like this is the dirty secret of weddings. Or maybe it is all the couples that have been busting up all around us. Thank goodness, I had someone who turned to me and gave me a name for what I was feeling. Cold Feet. You see, I have been a bit hateful. And I am officially marrying a saint. Thank goodness, I met an amazing man who has the patience to put up with me while I'm stressing about the big changes that is happening in my life. He is just so good to me.

As far as the wedding planning. We have so much done that when the 3 month mark came to our wedding date. I can proudly say I didn't freak out. In fact, I'm excited... Just 3 more months and I get to be the wife of that wonderful man that I mentioned in the above paragraph. Even the Maid of Honours' dresses are in. So now we just have the music and ceremony to plan out which we are doing, the first weekend in March. Which my fiance and I have done a lot of ground work on the ceremony itself. I have just a few more things to iron out. Such as the favors. And the music to party down to at the reception. But I think we have decided what we are going to do for the favors, I just have to investigate the cost. But I truly feel that we have gotten to the fun part. I mean who doesn't like calling up the florist and saying... Is there anyway that I can come in for ideas and suggestions that you might have for the tables at the reception. Or pouring over music that has inspired many different generations to frame their wedding ceremonies. This part is beyond fun. This is where we get to see my vision of the theme come into play and make it happen. It is just so exciting. Then Yay!!! We will be ready for the wedding!!!! Wow, when did the time go? I can't wait to finish all those checks on my list from The Knot. It is going to be the best feeling. Well, second best feeling... I am thinking the best feeling will be those words at the end of the wedding ceremony. Introducing us to our guests as Husband and Wife. Humm.. I would say that is the most perfect way to end this post with that thought.

The Up Swing

There has been an Up Swing in our planning of the wedding. We are finally in the fun stuff. I'm feeling that this whole thing will be OK. It has been a tough road because I have found that planning this wedding as put me in a very vulnerable spot. I never expected that. I find that I have been overly worried about what others are thinking about my wedding. Or my ideas. It doesn't help that there is only so many themes you can do in a wedding. But it seems like the garden theme which is something that I am loosely using is a big one. Or being told that I'm not allowed to do something because someone else is doing it. That is hard. I hate feeling like I'm not allowed to do something because someone else is doing it. Ugh. So I have come to a realization. And you know what I have realized, and trust me when I say that this has been a struggle and I will probably continue to struggle with this til May 23rd. I'm wasting a lot of energy worrying about all of this. OK, well I'm still going to worry but I'm going to work on the overwhelming urge to double and triple worry about it and not doing it to avoid hurting people. It is my wedding too. I am getting married as well. While I don't want to step on toes. I want to have memories as well. I want an day where everyone has a ton of fun. I can only do so much to make that wish happen. It will be alright.
But I think we are on the up swing of things. Saturday, I picked out our linens for the reception. That was a ton of fun. There is nothing like getting to play with some linens where we can see which way we wanted to go with the idea for the wedding. Then the fiance and I had a great meeting with Fr. Dan who will be marring us. It was really really good. then followed by us just hanging out. Just the two of us. It was perfect. I loved it. Then last night, Mom and I went back to Everything on Paper with Beth to continue the search for the perfect invitation. We found one!!! I now have invitations for the wedding. And Mom likes the invitation as well. I was starting to worry that we weren't going to find one. But we did and it looks perfect and totally fits with everything I wanted. I'm so excited. I'm beyond excited that I feel like the stress of everything not really coming together is finally coming together. Now it is just the fun stuff. But there is a poll question for my readers. Favors.... Is this a must to a wedding that you attend. Or should we donate the money in the name of our guests? Please let me know what you think. I am interested in what others have to say.
That is it for now. I hope everyone is enjoying this spring like weather.

The Invite...

I can't find an Invitation that I like. I have the image in my head about what I want. Something vintage, yet romantic and with a touch of me-ness. And ooh yes, not to blow the budget on it as well. I just want something smart, fun, and classy all at the same time that will read... You should see how much thought is going into me (the invitation). Thus you should come to the wedding. I know that I might be over stretching the importance of the invitation to the wedding for some people. But seriously everything that I have read tells me that you must have the "right" invitation because it sets the "tone" of your event. Ahhh.. the tone.... that is a big job for a just one invitation. So nothing is quite perfect enough. I haven't seen anything that tells people that I want them to feel like they are stepping back in time with my fiance and I where love isn't just something that happens in fairy tales. Where love it something that is solid and worked on. Where that love not only survives the modern day interpretation of "I get what I want right now, who cares what it/or who it hurts" but something that you realize that no matter what this is the person who you want in the rocker next to you while your grand babies play on the floor. So yeah, that is a lot to put into an invitation but I am just trying to set the tone of the event. Or maybe the better to say is the tone of our commitment. Such a tough task for just an invitation. Luckily we did find someone who does invitations that we really like. And by we, I do mean myself and my amazingly patient even when I'm driving her crazy wedding coordinator. Aka: Mom. Everything on Paper is just wonderful. So it is back to her again, perhaps starting from scratch but still with a clearer picture of what I want. So the search is on! Wish me luck!