Nesting without Pregancy... Is this normal?

As I'm sitting here writing to you.... I am also nursing a huge fat bottom lip. Why you ask? Well, on Sunday I cooked for my mother in law and one of my fiance's sisters. But still you ask why this would resulted in a fat lip. Because I got so nervous that I broke out in cold blisters. Now some other people get hives when placed in a nerve racking situation. But me... I have this huge cluster of blisters on my lip which does nothing with helping me feel cute and ready for Valentine's Day. Now, the food went well. And so far no one has said anything about me poisoning them. This is a good thing, for some reason, I have the feeling that my fiance would not be happy if I manage to poison them. I wanted to prove that I could pull off that type of meal and as old fashioned as this sounds, keep my fiance well feed. Which in the old fashion sense, must mean that I will be able to keep him happy as well. I know it doesn't make sense. But somewhere in the back of my mind, I still connect with that thought with being a good wife. And this is with taking multiple classes in Women Studies in college. Almost to the point where I could minor in Women's Studies and yet here I am thinking... I must be a good cook and house keeper to be a good wife. Where does that thought come from? My mother never put that thought into my head. Not once, she raised us all to be strong, opinionated women. So really where does this come from? Is it the same old thing about society that warped our minds from the earliest beginnings? Along this line of being a good wife besides making amazing meals but also comes in keeping the house. I have heard of nesting when one is pregnant. But I've never heard of nesting when one is getting married. But it is the only way that I can describe the way or the mood per say I'm in. Everything must be cleaned and the apartment needs to be pulled together. I have all these really good creative ideas. I can't wait to go to estate sales and look for stuff for the apartment or go to the Deconstruction Depot, just to poke around. Not to mention, I'm reading a friend's home improvement blog obsessively to steal a little of her creative ideas.
http://www.charlesandhudson.com/. Which you can peruse at your leisure, those of you that do own your own home, read it! Any who... everything of mine needs to be cleared out and pulled together to see what I should be moving to my fiance's and what should be tossed out. You will be surprised at the amount of bath stuff I have. But I think a good rule of thumb is if I haven't used it in a year. Then I'm not going to use it. So then they need to go. See what I mean? Usually I am the worse kind of hoarder, which has led to me missing some very important stuff in the black hole of the spare room in the basement. But not right now, it is all about it is time to clear it all out. get rid of it all!!! Before I scare my fiance with the amount of stuff that I need to look amazing. Time to par it all down. (For now anyway ;) )

Ahh the Good Stuff

See as promised, I am going to fill you in on the good stuff as well. I just need to vent a little with everything that was going on.

1. Really good thing.

We are in our 3 week of Boot Camp. I can't believe it. It seems to be going much faster this time around. Maybe that is because we are getting so much closer to the wedding so I feel more of the urgency to get working on the belly down in size or two. But I think it is going well. I have started to run. yup you read that one right. I have start to run. I still get sore but nothing that some ibuprofen can't fix. Besides, I think the fact that I still get sore is good. It means my muscles aren't just resting and not getting a workout. I am almost sad that we have a week of rest coming up. I don't really want it. I will have to be very good at working out on my own. I am actually hoping to get my fiance involved. Just one more thing that we can do together. :) I really like it when we have things that we can do together. But I think that I would like to keep going with this whole fitness thing. I have one very hot fiance. I think that he deserves to get a hot wife out of marring me. lol. But we have big plans on taking a big vacation around May or June of 2012. And I would like to be able to keep up with and do everything he would like to do! So I would like to keep this slow and steady weight loss up. I like the feeling of losing the weight.

The second great thing that happened was that the Fiance and I went on date night. It was fantastic. I had a wonderful time. He took me to see The Kings Speech. Which was amazing. It is worth all the money to go see it. If you can. If not you have to rent it when it comes out! It is an must own for me. Then we went out to dinner at the fiance's most favorite place to eat. But seriously it was just amazing. The whole night was everything I was hoping for in a date night. He went above and beyond, taking me to a movie that was just delightful and then out to dinner. It doesn't take much to make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. But that is exactly what that Date Night did for me. Now, it is my turn and I think I know exactly what I want to do with him.

Another really great thing that happened since the last time I wrote. I had my first Bridal shower! It was given by my sister who is the MOH. It was wonderful. I had so much fun. And let me tell you, my relatives are a bunch of very fun people. And so creative! take a look at this! My cousin did this. And just in case you were wondering. That is my wedding colors. How amazingly cute is this. I loved all my gifts. My family really went above and beyond. Not to mention 2 cookbooks, and I just love cookbooks. But I was told I can't touch them til after the wedding. So excited to cook out of them. Ugh. Is it May yet! Just kidding... Way to much stuff to get done. But that is a totally different post!

Signing off for now! Hugs and Love everyone!

Seriously.... Seriously..... SERIOUSLY!

Dear Readers,
I have to say that lately, I haven't really written not because there wasn't things to share and really good things. But because the words weren't lining up correctly in my head. I have started about 3 new posts and each one falls short of everything that has been going on. Sometimes this journey to the Altar is a ton of fun. And I love it. And other times, I wish it was just over already. All this planning and spending money on wedding stuff or the big conversations that I have to have with my wonderful fiance. Then comes a big problem. That has me frustrated to no end.
My gorgeous ring. The one that he and I worked so hard to lovingly pick out has turned colors. And before you think that it is because it is silver. Oh no, He didn't buy me a silver engagement ring. It is white gold. I'm standing in the store with my mom yesterday, trying to just get this figured out. To which they tell me this is perfectly normal and I will just have to be the person who gets my ring re dip every year, twice a year for the life of the ring. Not that they are going to pay for that. Oooh no that will be for the fiance and I to cover. I'm sorry but after paying what he did for this ring and then have to do up keep on the ring besides just cleaning it. I'm so not having it. My father wears white gold and has never had it re dip. And that ring has been through a lot. But it still looks white.
So what is a girl to do... Not to mention, I feel alone in my outrage about my ring. My fiance isn't all that worked up about it. But I'm a whole host of emotions. I'm mad because we went to what is consider the best in town to go to. I'm sad because most likely the ring that Dan proposed with is not going to be on my finger come Saturday. All of our engagement pictures are going to have a different ring then what I will most likely be wearing. And to top it all off, I'm annoyed that after going through the process to find our perfect ring. We are now going to have to do the same thing. Again. So what should I do. Go look for a different ring? Try to find the same band in gold rather then white gold? Demand our money back and go some place else and turn in all of our rings? Ugh. I just keep thinking that this can't be happening to us. But it is and now we have to figure out what to do next.
As far as bad news, I should probably just put it all out there. Sorry, this is bad news blog day for me. So Dan and I had original planned on getting married in October of 2011. But my brother had a new station to report too so we changed our plans so that way my brother could be at our Wedding. And now we found out that the United States Government has decided to send him to Afghanistan in April. Yup that is right. One month before our wedding. They could give him just one more month. Send him in June. Look, I understand that is the life of the military family. And we are not the only ones in the nation that are struggling with this. But Seriously.... I have never once even thought that I would be getting married and not having my big brother be there. You know, the guy who has watched out for me since we were little. The one that never let anyone but him pick on me. Or the guy that made sure before I left for college, I knew how to get out of a choke hold or could seriously damage someone who was trying to hurt me. The guy who use to terrorize my dates, scowl at my boyfriends for holding my hand in church and has promised or maybe a better word is to threaten, to have a big talk with my fiance before the wedding to make sure he knows there is no going back (not that I haven't done that already). Now, I have an amazing friend who will step in and help with the bridal party stuff. And I love and adore him for being willing to do that. But still it is sad to think that my brother will be missing such a huge moment in my Fiance's and I's life.
See lots of frustrating things going on right now. I promise the next post I will let you all in on the good stuff. I just needed to vent a little on this one. So to end this post with one more thought. God Bless the soldiers and their families. May those who hold office understand the sacrifices they ask of their people. And strive to serve us better.