I don't know about you but I feel like this weekend just can't come fast enough. Work was crazy... I felt like no matter what I did or said this week was good enough. No matter how hard I worked on improving I just received rejection for anything and everything. I know, I know... We don't live in a world that everyone gets A's all the time but I spent two months working on a project when I wasn't crazy busy with my main job for it to be outright rejected by my boss. As unprofessional as crying at work is. I won't lie and say I didn't tear up. I worked every trick in the book not sit at my desk and cry.
To top that off, Hubby and I got into a big fight. Well, Let me rephrase. I fought he just looked at me, not really knowing what to say. I can't even say it is really his fault and it wasn't like we had some horrible crisis go on. Trust me, we have had much worst fights. It was just the perfect storm. Crappy day at work and Crappy day at home. I just wanted him to appear more on board.
See, we are supposedly starting to look at houses. That was our compromise.... We won't move out of state (like I want to do but he would rather not) but we will start to seriously think about buying a house. However, since making that compromise, I feel like I am dragging him along to do the things that are needed for house hunting and such. Look, I don't want to push him into a house, he says that he wants to look for a house but his actions are telling me that he doesn't. And if that is the case, then I don't want to be the driving force here. I want it to be a joint effort where we both have fun with this. But it is turning into a stressful mess, so I have decide that from now on I'm not doing anything till he is ready to move on it. So basically he has to make the first move. It is like Dating all over again. I just have to remember to giggle and bat my eyes lashes. But seriously until then, I'm in a holding spot. Because we are a partnership and I'm not doing this without my partner. So until then my dream is just going to have to wait a bit. *Sigh, I'm not good at the whole patience thing.*
What are you guys doing for the weekend?
You sound a lot like Brian and I trying to have our first baby. It was way more important to me ,at the time, than it was to him and I just couldn't understand it. Now look, we have 4 kids and guess who is the one who still wants more?? Brian! Funny how things change. Also, Brian pushed for a move to our current house and I had to be dragged along through the process and now I am so glad he did it. Let things cool down over the weekend and the path with become more clear. Don't fret we have all been there!
ReplyDeleteThanks Laura! That is nice to hear that this is normal process!
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